Music

 Last weekend, when I got off of work on Saturday, I was heading over to meet up with Lawrenn and I couldn't find the place she was at. I got super frustrated, especially when I got stuck in a lane and sucked onto the freeway! I decided to just head to the park and sit for a bit because in that frustration, added to the emotions running high already, I was crying. You know that "all I can do is cry 'cause I don't know what else to do" kind of cry? Yeah, it was that.

While sitting in my car, my radio was "speaking to me". When I'm not listening to an audio book, my radio tends to be on KLOVE, the Christian Music station (even though they tend to play the same songs over and over and over (I personally prefer The Fish, but can only get that when I go to Disneyland LOL)). One of my new favorite songs came on, and in that moment it was perfect:

Blessings by Laura Story

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?

What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

And all the while You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?

And what if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can’t satisfy?

And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?